使看不見的東西被看見

小睡起來，已是午夜。抬頭看見窗外的夜景，經過白天大雨的洗刷後，間外澄澈。

隨手拈來龍應台的《百年思索》，代序是「政治人的人文素養」，是一篇於九九年在台大法學院，向一群廿多歲的法學生所作的演講。我沒有聽過龍應台的演講，但從她的講稿，已感受到她的份量，而她演說時嚴肅但親切的態度，和那份憂國憂民的思緒，亦完全在精煉的文字間滲透出來。

有幾句我特別喜歡，把比較短的，節錄在此：

－（文學的其中一種功能）是「使看不見的東西被看見」。
－壞的作家暴露自己的愚昧，好的作家使你看見愚昧，偉大的作家使你看見愚昧的同時認出自己的原型而湧出最深刻的悲憫。（我一定是壞的作家，但我不怕暴露自己的愚昧。）

代序之後，就是《百年思索》。這篇需要稍花心思去讀，因為涉及的歷史和古文較多。貫穿文章的一個訊息，就是百年前存在的問題，今天仍然存在——歷史不停在重演。

這個道理我是明白的，因為人生中的同一個問號，在我過去的廿許年中，已不知重覆浮現過多少遍，更何況在歷史中？！

我兩個小時前，才對著鏡子哭訴，為何活了快廿五年，每天還是要與事業、男人、樣貌和體重紏纏？讀了龍應台，我自覺把著眼點放得太近，本應是獨立的思想，卻被價值觀混亂的時代混淆了。女人廿五歲，算甚麼？！龍應台說她四十歲才發現歷史的真諦，所謂「活到老、學到老」，面對無窮無盡的知識，我真的是很年輕。

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這陣子，不喜歡交際，寧願埋在家裡，與書本一起笑、一起哭。

今天朋友說我老了，她說，人大了，清楚知道自己要甚麼，會作甚麼，不再需要朋友的建議，所以傾訴的時間也隨之而減少。

是的，一位好朋友的爸爸剛去世，另一位朋友的身體出狀況；每天都有人和事提醒著我：你老了。

God helps Bush!!

I never got tired of reading these "jokes", I hope you share my fun too.


Can the English language survive?

"The vast majority of our imports come from outside the country."
- George W. Bush

"If we don't succeed, we run the risk of failure."
- George W. Bush

"One word sums up probably the responsibility of any Governor, and that one word is 'to be prepared'."
- George W. Bush

"I have made good judgments in the past. I have made good judgments in the future."
- George W. Bush

"The future will be better tomorrow."
- George W. Bush

"We're going to have the best educated American people in the world."
- George W. Bush

"I stand by all the misstatements that I've made."
- George W. Bush

"We have a firm commitment to NATO, we are a part of NATO. We have a firm commitment to Europe. We are a part of Europe."
- George W. Bush

"Public speaking is very easy."
- George W. Bush

"A low voter turnout is an indication of fewer people going to the polls."
- George W. Bush

"We are ready for any unforeseen event that may or may not occur."
- George W. Bush

"For NASA, space is still a high priority."
- George W. Bush

"Quite frankly, teachers are the only profession that teach our children."
- George W. Bush

"It isn't pollution that's harming the environment. It's the impurities in our air and water that are doing it."
- George W. Bush

"It's time for the human race to enter the solar system."
- George W. Bush


And something to be REALLY worried about:

Hellenic Land

看到人類的文明，在奧林匹克運動會開幕典禮中，用最美的一面展現出來，我不禁又感動得流起淚來。

當中一幕，一塊標誌希臘古代文明的雕塑，在空中瓦解，變成十多片獨立藝術品，再在水上旋轉，投影出一張張不同種族的美麗瞼孔，場面震撼而感人。

之後又有幾百個化妝成木像的舞蹈者，演繹出希臘千多年的歷史神話。整個環節的美學和創意，不得不令人驚嘆。

那一刻，我像脫離了現實世界，飛到那片我一直嚮往的Hellenic Land。希臘的神話、希臘的藝術、希臘的哲學，我在求學時期，都有特意去接觸，就為了將來婚後的那一天，到達我的dream land的時候，能有更深入的交流和體會。

希臘，對我來說，是天人合一的美。天枰座的人，看到了「美」，就會流下感動之淚。

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年多前，在網上看到今天的奧運，在召募義工，為期半年。能免費看奧運會，更有機會在希臘生活半年，當然求之不得。可惜，以當地的高生活指數，與自己微薄的積蓄，連住的地方也要自己租，怎麼盤算，也沒辦法。

2008年吧，我一定會到北京，觀賞在自己國家舉行的奧運盛事。可能到時候，我流的淚，又有另一番含意。

Lavender Field

I'm feeling weary of life. I've longed to become a reporter, now that I've finally made one, but I only found myself proceeding along, without knowing where I'm heading.

I am the kind of person who needs constant changes and challenges.

I'm also tired of the life in this city. Maybe it's this job that wore me out. Plainly work and sleep everyday. Weekends are no longer for anticipation. All have become too boring for me. I just want to getaway, to a place where no one speaks my language. Only low-rise houses, lakes and forests. I need a total change of lifestyle. Lying next to a lavender field, with that jazz melody in my head, and enjoying the same sun setting everyday. Maybe then, I don't mind being alone.

Officially Over

My phone got stolen again tonight, in the same bag, in the same district, and in the same month as last year.

Difference, was that I felt it right away this time and so I had the opportunity to confront the man behind me on the escalator in this pimp-and-gangster-filled MTR station. But of course, what are the odds of getting a stolen phone back from a thief?!

What raged me was the fact that other passengers just let it happen and just stared at me as if I was doing a show. No one stood out and point out the theif. I am sure many eyes saw WHO put his hand into my bag. What were with these Hong Kong people?

Argh, this is frustrating. Anyways, if you happened to read this entry and felt that you're nice enough to cheer me up, give me a call, or leave me with your number.